Some days I am amazed. I spend the day doing normal things, working, sending emails, driving to look at houses, talking on the phone, but when I get a moment to pause, I realize that I’ve been aroused the whole time. I’m in an almost constant state of arousal. I wasn’t always like this, in fact, I was never like this before. I would get turned on right before sex during foreplay, but I was never the type of girl to walk around with wet panties. Now, I am that girl. D/s has made me that girl! Its like the string between my brain and my vagina has finally been pulled taut, and I am able to feel the vibrations as it is being plucked.
We all know that the brain is the biggest erogenous zone, especially for women, and I know this is true for me as well. I need that mental and emotional push to get me even close to the edge, because without it I am unfocused and my mind starts to wander. My husband is excellent at keeping my mind occupied throughout the day, plucking my string in many different ways.
We play games and send sexy texts, he plans and teases me about upcoming scenes, and he taunts me with fantasies that may or may not ever become reality. I am required to ask permission for certain things throughout the day which means we are constantly checking in with each other. It’s different than it was before where we would ask how each other’s day was going or how lunch was, its so much more personal and related to our physical and emotional connection now. I know that my husband is thinking of me throughout the day, dreaming of what he wants to do to me, imagining me in a compromising position. He spends a great deal of time planning, which means his thoughts are on me and this is a huge turn on for me and something that we didn’t have before. In return, I spend many moments anticipating, wondering, and imagining what he will do to my body and where that will take my mind.
There are other reasons for my increased libido that don’t pertain to D/s of course. I’ve finally gotten my hormones under control and my body has responded with gusto. Having that worked out means that my body is on a normal cycle and I can experience each part of that physically. It’s like moving from a place in the tropics to one that has all four seasons throughout the year, and I am really enjoying the change of season!
I’m in my mid-thirties so I think that I’ve finally come to terms with who I am as a woman, can appreciate my body for what it is, and I finally know how I like to be touched and played with. It is amazing that we spend so much of our youth bumbling through sub-par sex thinking that is how it’s supposed to be. Then you come out on the other side and it’s like a light has been turned on, illuminating all of the bad decisions you made. Why did I stay with that person? That was terrible boring sex! Now I’m on the other side, and I can clearly see that I’m in the right place, with the right person, and I can be happy for the path I’ve taken.
I do believe that D/s and our special dynamic is the main culprit for my crazy sexual energy. My husband works very hard to keep me stimulated, in both mind and body, and I am so appreciative of that. Not every partnership works out so perfectly where each person is so in tune to the needs and desires of the other and there is a platform for open and honest communication about those needs and desires. I am certainly going to enjoy this ride while I can (pun intended)!